1 Month

Little Raegan isn't so little anymore. This past week marked her 1 month here on this great earth. In that time, she has started holding her head up longer and longer. She's been doing it since her first week of life but she's doing it for extended periods of time. BOOO!!! She's gained 2 pounds since we left the hospital which makes her a whopping 9 pounds. She is my little cry baby. Where Erick was really quiet as a baby and rarely cried, Raegan cries a lot. Her hair is a big puff ball and sticks straight up when it dries after her baths and is exactly like mine was when I was a baby. One of my favorite things is her hair is dark and her eyes have stayed a blue color. YAY!!! I always wanted a dark hair light eyed child and I got her!

She has been such a blessing and joy thus far and I love that I get to be her mom and watch her grow.

Milk and Colic and Tantrums

Little Raegan is just over 2 weeks old now. Thus far, she is definitely more vocal than Erick was as a baby. Erick cried on a rare ocassion and he slept so well at night. Raegan, total opposite. While Erick had reactions to anything milk based as a baby, Raegan reacts to pretty much anything I eat. It breaks my heart to hear her little cries because she is uncomfortable and in pain from something that I am giving her. I am at a loss right now. Do I keep breastfeeding or do I go strictly formula? I want to breast feed so bad but I don't want her to be in pain. Also, with the price of formula, it would really be beneficial to breastfeed. Either way, formula or breastmilk, Raegan cries and screams unless she is being bounced between the hours of midnight and 5 a.m. Shoot me now! Colic is seriously of the devil. When I was a baby I had colic and from the time my dad walked in the door from work until 2 or 3 in the morning, I was crying and screaming. My dad loves to remind me that I'm lucky to be alive. Now, here I am dealing with my own bundle of joy in her colicy hours. If her hours of crying and screaming were during the day or early evening, I think perhaps I could deal with it better. I finally broke down this morning out of exhaustion and emotional craziness. Lucky for me, I still have my husband home all day every day and my mom is still here helping me out but it is still a struggle. I love her to pieces but this middle of the night stuff is taxing and to top it off, my sweet son has been not so sweet lately.

Erick has started throwing tantrums really bad again. I'm not sure how to punish him anymore. Spanking doesn't work, time outs aren't doing much and so I don't know what else to do. Perhaps I'm missing something very obvious. I know that he doesn't do well with change, he never has. However, I don't know that his tantrums are associated with the change. Maybe it's age, maybe something else is going on inside of him that he can't communicate but it's enough to drive me insane right now. I have a screaming child during the day and a screaming child at night. I can't wait for my 6 week waiting period to be over so I can start exercising and doing something for me. I think that will be my sanity. 2 weeks down, 4 to go.