Tuesday, March 13, 2012

I just want to scream

The past few days have been so trying as a mother. The terrible twos are worse than terrible, whatever that is, and being pregnant with little patience doesn't help. Right now, my dear sweet son (when he is sleeping) is cutting his 2 year molars. Two at the same time to be exact so he's been extra ornery. I get and understand that but the past couple of days things got worse. He hasn't really had anything to eat or drink. I'll offer him anything and everything, he just turns it right down. That is SO not my son. He hasn't been sleeping, which means Mama hasn't been sleeping. To top it off, today he has been inconsolable. Screaming, crying, throwing tantrums, nothing can appease him. I was at my wits end. I wanted to lock him in a room and throw away the key to be quite honest. I love my son but today I couldn't take anymore.

When Alex got home, he suggested taking him to the dr tomorrow. I figured, why wait? Lets just take him to the instacare and see if there is anything wrong. So off we went. Instacares in Utah were always busy but not like in Vegas. I loathe going to the instacares here. My son, who doesn't like to sit in one place to long started freaking out before we even got back to the room. It only got worse once we were in the room and waiting for the dr. I wanted to cry, scream, throw something across the room and just walk out. The wait for the dr wasn't too long but he spent maybe 5 minutes with my son, didn't give me the chance to explain what exactly was going on and then told me my son had a sinus infection and ear infection as he was walking out the door. My blood was boiling.

It literally took another 20 minutes to get a discharge nurse to come in and give us the prescription and discharge paperwork. The whole time we were waiting all my son could say through sobs and screams was "I wanna go bye, bye" "I wanna see Dad" "I go home" and I finally broke down and cried. I think when the discharge nurse finally came in she felt a little bad. I couldn't get out of there fast enough.

I hate when my son is sick. I hate that he can't convey to me what is wrong and what is hurting. I hate that he has a sinus infection on top of an ear infection. I mean, how does that happen to a 2 year old? When he got strep on his 1st birthday I felt like a horrible mom, how could a 1 year old get strep? Now at the age of 2 he has a sinus infection? I seriously feel like I'm not doing something right. I don't know what I'm missing or what I am supposed to do different. I just hope he feel better soon. Let me rephrase, I NEED him to feel better soon. I'll take normal terrible twos over sick terrible twos anyday.

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